Spirituality

Dig Deep

April 21, 2014 — Leave a comment

I know everyone isn’t a Christian and all… But, like I said yesterday, there is freedom of speech and there is respect ..

The thing that wearies me the most is when I see people take a spiritual concept and then completely twist it in such a way as to miss the point of what is being said.

It’s gotten to the point now where people will legitimately go out of their way to find just ONE voice that agrees with them.  And it’s that type of attitude that shows a level of selfishness that I’ve come to expect out of anyone who is born on this earth.  The thing that’s just about worse is the other twist in this dynamic:   the selfish reasons by which a man will agree with a woman, a woman with a man, a family member with a family member.

And this level of agreement will be defended to the death.  Right or wrong.  The problem is, it’s most arduous defense is usually when it’s wrong.  Truly, that is the one that hits me most in my heart.

You got so called, “empowerment” groups saying “follow me and I’ll teach you how to stand tall”.  You got other groups saying this or that is ok.  You got mothers defending their child when the child committs some of the most heinous acts   blaming the victim as if the victim is wrong for calling the police or standing up for themselves in a court of law .

As if, people want you to trade one master for another but yet, call you all sorts of ignorant types when you don’t give them the time of day.  But yet, they promise you all sorts of freedom and so forth.

The biggest most detestable lie to me is when I see someone take the truths of God in Heaven and twist them for their own selfish gain.  They pervert spiritual riches by saying “God promises you earthly riches.” When in fact, God is speaking of spiritual and eternal riches. 

Yet, I get told to shut up when I tell a woman the most precious jewel of her IS her body.  Why?  Because the body is the ONE thing she has that she has control over.  The same with any human being.  Your mind can “loosely ” wander but your body is the instrument by which your mind does it’s work.  So if you can control the entirety of your body, you restrain, and thus control, the mind.

Yet, people don’t want to understand that.  Some of you choose to cloud your mind with liquor and drugs then wonder why you can’t stop doing this or that.  Wondering why you can’t have peace outside of yourself.  It’s simple, control your body to restrain your mind.

I’m not saying it’s easy.  Sometimes I have to openly tell myself “no”.  The ultimate question we all have to ask ourselves, at some point, is , “how strong is our will?”  Because your soul is the very you dation of who you are and there is where you will find your will.

That’s why I truly love the statement, “dig deep inside yourself to accomplish your goal.”  Because that involves digging into your very soul to overcome.  Digging into that place that also site your spirit and conscience to say, “Enough!”

Dig deep within yourself to openly acknowledge just who you are and to know that you’re better than this.

But, then again, you could probably just telk me I’m talking out my behind and need to go sit down somewhere

Test Them

April 10, 2014 — Leave a comment

Not every pretty face is worth my time.  Truthfully, this is how I feel.  Not every pretty face comes packaged with a pretty personality.  This is what I’ve seen.  Not every pretty face comes with pretty intentions.  This has been my experience.

What’s it worth to you?  This is a question I ask you, my audience.  I suppose I ask it because I’m tired of seeing good people reduced to how they look or what they have.  I could ask, “Whatever happened to seeing a person for who they are?”. But I’d be making myself out to seem delusional.  No one sees a person for who they are. I doubt they ever have.  Most people only see in a person what they want to see.

Now, whether that is good or bad is merely up for debate.  Because what a person sees is really relative to that person.  But the qualities of a person, I don’t think anyone sees that.  Not anyone on this side of Heaven anyway.

I do find truth in what God said, when speaking of David’s brother’s, that “man sees what’s on the outside, but God sees what’s in a man’s heart”.  Then, while speaking of the heart of man, Jesus said “it is filled with all sorts of lies and deceit.”.

So, what am I to believe at this point in my life?  I guess you, my reader, can ask if you can even believe me.  You are entitled to that honestly.far too often I tell people to put me to the test.  I find no one willing to give me a challenge or, at least, challenge me.  I’m not all knowing but God’s Word is pretty clear on what to expect from humans.  So I expect all things while demanding nothing.

Thus, most people bore me.  Comes with the territory of making the decision I made 13 years ago to study people.  And, to be frank, most bore me.  If you study people long enough, you’ll get to the very foundation of their actions.  Don’t focus on what you see.  Focus on their reasoning, their goals, their plans.  Put an emphasis on what they say. “For what comes out of the mouth of a man is what is in their heart.”.

If you, in the least bit of loving yourself, do not put people to the test and weigh them against what love truly is, then you will always fall as a victim.  And never rise as a victor.

The Power Within

April 9, 2014 — Leave a comment

I remember when I opened this blog about a week ago.  I did so with the intent of posting everyday.  Yet, I know me, I would have to find some sort of inspiration to do that and not many things inspire me.

Today, I was in the shower thinking about that opening paragraph.  I wanted to write today but I felt so uninspired.  That’s when it hit me; stop seeking inspiration outside of myself and look within.  Something I have lived out many times during various things in my life, but I was never able to put words to it until now.

Finding inspiration within myself becomes easier to do now that I’m able to put some words to it.  It’s similar to having depression.  I always knew something was off but it wasn’t until I had a name for it that it became easier to deal with and manage.  I would think that applies to almost everything in life.  Because some of our bigger struggles often have no name or identity.

It’s when we can recognize what is going on that we can actively do something about it.  Thus, here I am seeking my inspiration from within.  Because there is no power outside of myself that can do for me what the power within me can do.  That is where my drive, passions, desires, inner fire, heart and soul lie.  That is where God communicates with us the most and strengthens us.

No matter how much we plan, prepare, and expect things in our lives, there is nothing on Earth that can overcome that inner man thy can NOT be destroyed or killed.  It can be weakened, thought as nothing, and even; by our own choices, left wanting.  Yet, it is within that we find out who and what we truly are.

Light Through Darkness (Working Through Rejection)

April 1, 2014 — Leave a comment

Today I went to the library jut to download a game on my Steam account and watch some youtube videos.  On the way here, I got that dreadful text most people in my position dislike.  That dreadful, “I don’t think we’ll click but good luck in your search” text.  I hate that text.  Which is weird considering, I moved on when I didn’t hear from her some time ago.  I cut it as a loss and basically moved on.

But, and this is the thing, I suffer from depression.  Manic depression to be exact so it wasn’t too long after receiving that text that I fell into a state of depression.  So, here I am at the damn library wanting to go crawl into a dark room somewhere.  I mean I felt it in the very fiber of my being.  Hell, I couldn’t even type my body was shaking so badly.  But, I did the one thing I felt I should do in that moment.  I fought through it.

I simply did my usual Google searches, checked my FB, jumped on youtube and watched some videos.  While every inch of me was screaming, “GO, RUN, HIDE!”, in my mind I was telling myself to just sit here and do what I came to do.  10 minutes later I was back in 100% status with everything back to normal.  Nature of the beast.

I got diagnosed with depression back when I was 13.  23 years I have lived with this and for 23 years I have fought through, learned about it, come to understand it.  Knowledge is power I tell ya!  If only because having this knowledge has helped me come to a place where I can calm my mind just enough to fight through the darkness that is trying to enclose me in.  Not an easy thing to do, especially when most doctors will tell you that you need to be on meds.  My medication is my faith.  That is what helps give me light through the darkness.  Therefore, my faith is my strength.

Honestly, rejection comes with the territory of dating.  I’m used to it.  It happens.  I’m not someone who thinks I’m everyone’s cup of tea.  Doesn’t mean I have to like it either.  I just choose to handle it in the same way I handle everything else that goes on in my life, I just keep moving forward while leaving all else behind me.

A Brief Introduction Of Evolution

April 1, 2014 — Leave a comment

Greetings, and welcome.  You can call me Chozen, if you want to be a friend.    I couldn’t tell you exactly why I am doing another blog, I truly had no desire to a couple days ago.  But, as I was at working thinking about it, maybe a blog with short posts wouldn’t be so bad to do.  I mean, all I do at work is think.  I think about my day, what’s going on with me, and my views.

 

I guess you could say, because of my constant thinking, I am in constant evolution.  Constantly evolving my life, my mind, and my spirit.  So I settled on just doing a daily diary of sorts.  Something to share my thoughts and feelings to the world.  So, why not get back into blogging.  Maybe, just maybe, I could learn something and you could learn with me.  So, I consider this a journey.  A journey to evolve and grow within and without myself and give you a chance to do the same with me.  So, with that said, the hardest part of any journey is the first step.

 

I’m taking that first step, will you take it with me?